Comfort person

I was only 5 yrs old when I first met him. He was 12, but a little kid around me. He was mature in that age too nd me, i was always do lost in myself that i never actually cared for him. We became friends I mean really good friends and my parents never prioritize me as they did my brothers so whenever something used to happen to me at home or anywhere, I would go to him nd sometimes I ran to him. He became so important to me nd i didn't even realize that but I was so sure that he was the only one i could run to whenever I felt like broken. We grew up and stayed together for 5 yrs, then I went to hostel for study because I was so done with my family nd he also suggested me or forced me to study hard so that I'd got into that hostel and continue my life at a place where I won't have to hear to my parent's taunts every time. I was so happy there because I was far from home and I could talk to him on calls at weekends. Then COVID -19 and lockdown etc and I was at home again. One day, I was at his home waiting for him and when he finally came, we had a fight, a very serious one nd I walked away from him. He was following me until I ran away from him so far. I had ego problem that time so i didn't call him even when I was back at hostel. An evening, I felt like I need to talk to him because if I don't, I'd feel like something is broken inside me nd when I called him, his father told me that he was no more, he had gotten something like tumour somewhere nd he couldn't be saved. But I didn't cry, I just disconnected the call nd went to my bed, i opened a book nd read nothing, at dinner i ate a lot, i always do when I'm extremely sad or angry. Finally at midnight, when everyone was asleep, I stared at ceiling nd remembered every moment, I mean everything ever happened between us. I was praying for a call or text or atleast a last msg for me but nothing came nd I realized that I'd not just lost him but a part of me, of my heart and there would never be a "Him & I" as we imagined. But I'm relieved now because even now whenever I feel sad or broken i feel like someone is patting my head, consoling me nd encouraging me to move forward and to be happy always. So, I'm happy for him nd I'll always be happy.