life’s too short to wait

Life’s so fleeting

Children grow up

Move far away

Life unravels

Relationships ends

Unreasonable expectations

From you or them

What to do

What to think

Are all up to me now

To the brink

New space

New vow

I’m not well

Vaccine..

Took my other self

Broke my inner tell

My trust in myself

My breath

My energy

Much harder to think

Of myself as free

Maybe that’s why

I’m not wrapping

Around this

Adapting is also bent

My personal hell

With high rent

Tapping my soul

For some past debt

Chest, breath and heart

Compressed

Valsava Manuever

Can’t help that

Freedom

Would be

Me not carrying

Another’s burden

My own expectations

My own standards

Hmm this I can handle

I know what I want

I know who I am

I never needed

Another’s hand

Or leash

What a creepy

Freaky thing

To demand

Perfect performance

What’s socially acceptable

Hair, clothes, shoes

List that doesn’t end

What others think

More important

Than what I think

No more!

What right?

What flare

I really Wish

I didn’t care

But I do

Whew 😅 I do

Missed me

No paper to bind us

One amazing vacation

And moments shared

Some were rare

Good enough

Why let it get rough

Just new problems

to solve…need a plan

Maybe give social

A good go..idk

But I want a garden

Room to grow

Garden Grove

My workshop

Will become

My refuge

My heart

Will be my own

My vase will be

Spilling over

with flowers

My pottery

Will benefit

My nervous

System will

Sing 🎤

eventually 👀