The unexplained feeling

I have realized something in life- when something so drastic or horrible happens to us , we think we might break - but still the level of emotions does not reach that peak, we somehow survive it .

One of my closest relative passed away and all through while he was struggling to survive i prayed, i cried and i begged to the universe for a miracle

But when nothing of that sorts happened, and he went away - i don't know , i sort of became numb and now i have no more tears to shed

And i thought this made me an unfeeling person but i guess it's because , i have finally realised that some things are never in our hands - we can cry , we can yell but at the end of the day we have no control over it whatsoever

And the best thing you can do is to learn how to live with it. Ik it makes us feel helpless but i guess it's only human to feel like that .

So trust me it doesn't make you a bad person when you finally decide to let go .