Anonimo
Where did I go?
This is my first post, but it’s the start of something. What? I don’t know. I’m looking for me. It sounds stupid, but I’m not the me I remember. I’m not even sure the me I remember is real or just an imagined fantasy of the kid who everyone thought was going somewhere.
Where am I now? I wish I knew. I don’t have the confidence I had 20 years ago. I’m not sure I have the confidence I had 3 years ago. Every step forward feels like walking through taffy.
The goal was always to help people. Really, to help myself by helping people. Now, it feels like people don’t want real help, they want easy help. They want the disposable, hallucination filled help that comes from a simple question to a chat bot.
I need to find the people who see the value in people. Otherwise, where are any of us going?
I feel you. I understand this feeling of not being ourselves. I too feel sometimes that I am not the confident person I once was. Nonetheless, the confidence I have today is enough to take me ahead in my life, hence I have no complaints. Self help books helped me when I was doubting my abilities, you may give them a try.