Anonimo
why?
Why? Why do I find myself here in an empty chasm laying in the depths? Unable to escape, unable to fly. The constant cycle of healing only to be grabbed y the devil's chain whip sending me crashing down to the floor once more. The demons disguised as my vices and addictions mocking me plucking each of my feathers from my wings one by one.deep inside me there is a small fire quiet whispering telling me to keep going......to not give up but I dont have the strength. This small fire trying to heal the little girl beaten and bruised living inside my head giving her hope despite knowing we both know we will be disappointed by the world again and again. Why? Why cant the little girl inside me give up and accept our fate. Unlovable, broken, and unfixable shattered over and over again. Why? Why cant I just accept my life and move on. Why do i keep habing hope when I know love doesnt exist?
There’s something really powerful about the contrast between feeling completely worn down and still having that tiny part of you that keeps hoping. I think hope can be confusing sometimes—it doesn’t mean everything will suddenly become perfect, but it can be the part of us that reminds us that our present circumstances aren’t the whole story. The way you described that “little girl” inside you makes this feel especially personal and vulnerable. Sometimes healing is simply learning to be gentler with that part of ourselves instead of expecting her to have all the answers.