being friends

We started talking after few days and the talk was really unexpected I started looking for reasons to talk with him text him but I’m introvert so I was shy to talk with him when the teaching sessions are going on . I had a friend she realized I started liking the butterfly so she checked my phone once without me realizing it and she started talking with him too and started flirting etc with him to get his attention. I saw them talking like in lectures etc she used to start any topic with him even if he is talking with the guys around him it used to make me feel insecure then I was just scrolling through my phone to divert my mind. I have texted the butterfly twice to confirm the documents I have created as we have to submit it to the authorities above us. And like everyone was dependent on me so I had to make sure the document is valid and accepted because others will use too I didn’t want anyone to get scolded or anything because of something I created and they copied . So that was the two times I have texted him then there was an unofficial group some guy I don’t remember asked me for the same documents in the group chat I have the habit of saying sorry if I can’t provide anything at the moment so the document was not yet ready for week 3 I said sorry to him like 3-4 times because other questions were kept on coming from other students too. Suddenly butterfly hoped on in group chat and asked me to not apologize to anyone . Then he texted me in personal too he realized I’m not comfortable around people and if my past is not good etc . He asked me in personal too and gave me comfort as a professional like to focus on myself and not to say sorry to everyone etc . He was like everything will be okay I don’t have to worry about it in all this he had his own worries obviously I can’t ask him myself because he is someone who is teaching me so teacher it doesn’t feel appropriate but we only had 1.4 years age gap so we got frank really soon, he shared me his worries and I shared him my worries too without realizing we became good bestfriends . But my friend kept on stalking me and him and she used to keep bothering him so she gets attention while I’m on one side watching her doing all this meanwhile he was trying to talk with me in class too but she used to come in between and used to ask me to change places with him. When it was last day of butterfly to teach us , I thought I won’t be able to meet him again so while we were having conversation I asked him if he needs this keychain it’s really important for me framing it like I have it with me I’ll be giving this to you if you want I asked for his permission too like it’s fine if he don’t want it , but in reality ? I just wanted to gift him something thinking I won’t meet him again so I bought this for him myself it wasn’t with me I bought it for him. He never knew that then my friend and me used to go together to the internship so I didn’t get any good change too give this to butterfly he was eagerly waiting for me to give this to him somehow I couldn’t give it to him directly because students were there so he used to keep his bag around me but my friend was constantly bothering me so I didn’t get any chance to put the keychain in his bag so when it was his last day in the internship teaching us, I lied to my friend that I need to go alone today for internship because of some reason so I went early I saw still morning batch students are there I thought I should wait outside I didn’t text him that I’m waiting because I thought he is busy later in few minutes he came out himself to check if I’m out I don’t know how he got that feeling I’m out waiting for him so he saw me we were awkward like before because it was like we were friends but too important ones catching feels for each other so I was shy too then he said I’ll empty the class for you he went and asked everyone to go home then everyone went and I sat on my place he wasn’t there I was alone I was too shy to see him alone so I started listening music and I kept the keychain inside his bag so later he came he tangled the keychain on his bag and we had some small talks because we both were shy so yeah that was the story behind this keychain.