I distanced myself from my crush

After 2.5 years Of texting, calling my feelings were growing Bigger and bigger day by day, and I knew that I won’t get him because I am not his type, but then I made a decision to change myself to be liked by him.

Then I told my friends about this and they said don’t change yourself to be liked by someone and they gave me some motivation and they say that this is no good for you. You have to be yourself, and if someone like the way you are, that is true Love.

So, I thought, yeah, yeah, why am I changing ? But also at that time I was so scared to confess my feelings to him because I have no confidence and full of insecurity. That Stopped me from confess my feelings to him.

Even my friends supports me to confess my feelings, but I was not ready because I was scared. What if I lose the friendship?

And after two months, I was about to step back from the friendship because i was falling in love with him And if I fell more and more in love, but realising the reality that I won’t get that felt me like in the future, I will be in great heartbreak.

So, I decided to stop texting him and move on.

And as I decided, I stop texting but texting a person for two years and falling in love and suddenly not texting , it was like a change from the daily routine that I used to have, and now suddenly has changed and the absence of his chats and calls really got me And I was not feeling well, and I felt some kind of pain in my heart also, but at that time i thought about the future that I won’t be having will be a big heartbreak, so if i stop this right now, it would be better, so I stick to my plan.

And then I stop texting him, and I thought I was over him.