Life is a journey

Every time we think of doing something new … a fear hits us ..
what if we couldn’t make it ?
What if it turns into a failure ?
People will make fun of us
It will be embarrassing
And all of these fears and thoughts stop us from doing something new , and i think atleast for once this has happened with everyone.
The fear that people will judge me for this or i may not be able to make it .

One such fear always lingered in me aa much as i liked trying new things i couldn’t get myself to start my own instagram page .

I spend on such money on trying new products especially makeup and skincare , and I definitely can tell you which is worth your money and which is just waste but i just could never start my own page only because i felt if it didn’t work out it will be embarrassing for me.

And then…..
One fine day i finally made the hard choice , the choice starting something new and in my case it was a UGC page on Instagram, i decided to go faceless and well give my honest opinions.
It definitely is not easy showing up everyday after getting tired from college and gym but i keep on trying and you know what … in the very first month of me starting i have got five hundered followers . I know its not much but to me it definitely is an achievement . I am happy to have all of these people and the better thing to overlook over here is definitely the brand deals i just got with these many followers .
I AM GRATEFUL.
And of course happy now this months goal is to gain double and we will see if thos happens or not . As of now i have to focus on growing my content , my skills and obviously my page .
Yet i have not told anyone other than my mother about my page as i told you before i have tried soo many things till , failed in some succeeded in others but this venture is seeming bright to me . I am waiting for the day i gather enough confidence and courage to come infront of the screen , till then we will continue this tale of faceless content creation.
Do you know one funny thing here ,
I did not even named my page my by name that is the level of fear of judgement i have . Yes i haven’t blocked anyone ( as of now ) but i am definitely using a stage name to create and publish my content . Hopefully one day i succeed in this and when this happened i will definitely come back here and tell you about it .
Till them i am leaving this story as a manifestation and as first stage of me gaining control over my fear of being myself .