My Brother

Everybody talks about mom and dad so I thought I would talk about their favourite person - Their son. It's not that I hate my brother but what hurts me is the love and importance he gets from our parents. We're Gen-z but still can't talk freely about our feelings at our own home. But their son, I mean brothers can. They can talk about anything , go wherever and whenever they want and with whoever, they will always be right. My parents loves me too but I don't understand that why can I not feel their love for me the way i feel their love for my brothers. Let me tell you something interesting, everyone who sees us when we're out will say you're such a sweet family and you are lucky to have them as your parents but they would never know that these so called sweet members were just making me insecure of my looks and everything i owned or I had. Do you guys wanna hear an interesting incident too? It really happens many times with me. When I was in 12th standard, i failed in exam and not just me but more than half of my class even when I studied more than usual. Whatever my brother told me to study i did and I was expecting average marks. But the result shocked me because I got just 3 marks in maths and i knew that moment that this is gonna be completely my fault even after they know that I was not so bad in maths. My parents said I failed because of me. I didn't study hard and the things ky brother told me to even after knowing that i did and learnt everything he told me to. Again I got admission but from up board, so the syllabus was a little different from cbse board but just a little. My boards came again but I didn't study much this time and my sweet brother didn't care to help me even a bit saying that he doesn't know about up board. When the result came, i passed and my sweet parents appreciated a lot but My brother not me because he is very nice and helps me in my studies and everything. They told me to be nice with him always because how can I make him upset, huhhh as if I care about him or his behaviour towards me. I'm happy in my own, even if I failed in everything. My peace is my only priority.