the realisation

I was very happy like a child who was crying just before an hour and now she is laughing with joy because she gets some chocolate. No matter what was the reason behind her cry an hour before.
Next morning I woke up at regular time but having severe headache. I tried to tell my husband about my headache, but he was more concerned about his office meeting and after then party which was to be held in the office. I was instructed to ready a dashing blazer, which one ge wanted to wear for today's event.
Oops.. but that blazer isn't at home. I gave it to the laundry last week and forgot to pick it up from there. Again I disappointed him. He just told me regular words like lazy, worthless and much more but I don't remember.
He left for office in anger without having breakfast. And I forgot my headache and felt regret for not being duty ful. After some thaught of guilty, I taken a pain killer and slept. All house work was pending, I was like unconscious due to relief. And when I woke up I saw the black, which was questioning me that dear it's 5:00 p.m.. Your husband is up to arrive at home and all this messed home will give him again anger shot. You will be again proved good for nothing.
Suddenly I found something broken inside me. I went to mirror and saw myself in it. I was unrecognisable. "Few years ago what I was... and this.. this is not me".
" What you have done yourself. And why are you doing all this. What's benifit for this if he doesn't see this." Like my soul is shook me. I kept sitting on the floor for two hour, and finding the reason behind my present life. I picked up my mobile and started seeing my past photos. My engagement, marriage, .. " oh .. is this me".. that picture was of my collage days.. and new journey of memories started ..
Suddenly I saw my face in the mirror.. I was smiling.. yes that's me.. where was I ???.. I asked myself. I realised that the present of mine isn't me... I was and I wanted to be like I was in my past... Perhaps my husband also wants me to be like that.. he accepted me in that form... It's not his choice...