Whether God is there or not

Though I have lots of friends if I call all of them at my home i will left with no space. However, I am someone who doesn't like to share things with the people. I am someone who thinks i don't need anyone to carry out weight of my words also i think there is no need to share everything with people. Hence, I have too much faith in God because he is the one always supported me who always care about me. Whenever i stuck somewhere he helped me out from the trouble.He is the one who was always there for me before everyone. Therefore, i shared everything with him he is the one who knows me very well. I am not someone who becomes begger and every time and starts begging for something. I tried till I have potential and after losing single hope i reached him and asked to help me as a friend. While talking i mention him as friend. Sometimes I got angry with him but some times I got apologitic. It's been while since the day I talked him because small things is good but when it's come to career he always becomes cheater. I missed cutoff form 1.25 marks that really made me sad everything is okay but this is not good without identity I am no one.