10:00 AM: Therapist asked when i last took a day off. Couldnt remember. Thats not normal.
10:30 AM: She said "you cant pour from an empty cup". Im not empty. Im non-existent.
11:00 AM: Talked about why i work so hard. Proving myself. To who? For what?
11:30 AM: She gave me homework. Take one evening off. Just one. Sounds impossible.
2:00 PM: Left feeling lighter. Also heavier. Awareness is uncomfortable.
5:00 PM: Told boss i need to leave at 6 today. He looked confused. I never leave early.
6:00 PM: Walked out at 6. Felt guilty. Felt rebellious. Felt scared.
8:00 PM: Cooked dinner. Watched tv. Did nothing work related. Felt weird but also... nice?
Baby steps. Thats what she said. This is a baby step.