Overwhelming

Oh really... You want to be a writer, a painter, a singer , a pot making artist...
Wow just wow. Can't you even decide one thing and stay in that? Oh wait wait i forgot something you are preparing for some government exam right? Tell me what do you want to do exactly? Do you even know that yet? I can see the simle forming when here someone singing a song so beautifully and you imagining yourself on that place. And I did see the exact same thing whenever you imagining yourself on everything i mentioned above.
Hey I am not mocking you. I know what you are feeling. You wish these all because these are the things give you peace. And I n ow you are truly happy when you draw. But you know that right we can't live with that. We need something permanent. Yes and there is question can't we make one of these a permenent thing. Think about it you also know the answer is no. Why... Because everything that makes you happy is something you only know half. You can't make a living out of it. Something you are trying now that is to get you to something permanent is need your full focus leave that happy face for sometime the back . And get that permanent work for that.
I heard this voice somewhere in my head. And even I know everything is right. Its sometimes both good and overwhelming. When you know everything and you are doing everything to reach the place you wanted. Still not satisfied. Your abilities I mean the artistic ability was have way and when you think you can escape it that world everything around your head sometimes stops you . The goal you wanted and the half knowledge I have on every way I love to escape.
Overwhelming by thinking all these. Silly but not silly.