pouring heart on paper

This is not for you or about you.
I hope you all feel beautiful enough.

Everyone like me but not love me because I'm pretty not beautiful


I'm always a photographer but never a photo because I'm pretty not beautiful
I'm the joke and joker in my circle
because I'm pretty not beautiful.
Everyone told me to laugh without showing my teeth because I'm pretty like that.
Everyone joked about me and said "oh,it's just a joke you look pretty "
That's the problem I'm just pretty not beautiful.

It's never about my personality It's my looks always that kept me behind because I'm pretty not beautiful.
Even my friends stopped talking to me when i had a glow down.
My cousins took pictures with others and never bothered to ask me join cause i might ruin the picture because I'm pretty not beautiful like them.


Everyone compliments me by saying things like 'cute, pretty' but never "beautiful"
Maybe things would've been different if I'm beautiful but not just pretty,everyone would've loved me differently but the reality is
I'm just pretty not beautiful.



Everyone says looks doesn't matter, but really?
I think it is said by beautiful people so far don't you think?




~lilly